This is me

I'm still deciding whether i should submit this post...somehow, i knew that it will sound stupid, very very stupid. GOsh

I'm 17!and i have only experienced 1/2 a date. In fact, that date was so unsuccessful that i regret it now. And...i turned out thinking that the 'date' was argh...rubbish. Hah..dun worry...nth against her now. My principle is not to hate anyone. So...she's just another Singaporean teen. That was when i'm 14.

Then on, it seemed like every person i like ended unsuccessful, especially the one from scss...oh...that was terrible. But at least all those were crushes. No luck with girls.

Even today. So from the starting of the year, i have fell for this particular person. And 5 mths, wow, a long time for any crushes to last. Maybe it's not a crush. So i ask myself if i like her for looks or character. She has a lovely smile, and have nice legs. She's sporty, and hardworking. But i do not know her very well. So very likely a crush. Yet again, i've been thinking about her days and nights, and even while watching movies, i would imagine myself as the hero and she has the partner(so maybe i'm the villain?). Wow.

She has admirers, but funny is, she doesn't like guys who likes her. She has good male frens, whom i really envy. Whenever she's right next to me, i feel so hopeless. I mean, it seems like there's really nth i could do but look at her?argh...Worse, i do not know how to respond to anything she says to me. I can with so many other girls...So typical a crush.

The only thing i dare say is that i like her. Yet i cannot go beyond. Sad.

At least i know that it's a crush. Let's just hope that it fades soon, very very soon. My story of BGR....

Came back from track camp and realise something...I fear being lonely. It seems kinda ironic, when a lot of times, i prefer doing things on my own. During the camp, we were supposed to play a game that everybody is seperated into different corners of the school, a modified version of hide and seek, except this time, the catcher is the hero. The school was dark, and it was 1 in the morning. When i sat alone outside the school staff room, i was petrified, so much that i did not dare to move. I knew i was alone. I knew it very well. Lucky enough, i was the first few to get discovered and carried on with the game. I feel so useless.

Oh yes..i finally got myself off championship manager and into the blog. Yay! Yesterday was my birthday!hah. Comparing to last year, this year's really a bomb!I won my first track medal for Cj, while last year, i received my english paper's result: it was red(yea...i couldn't even type a blog well!i'm trying...).

Often, i watch television shows and see characters forgetting their birthdates. Naive as i can be, i believed that it was rather cool. And i tried to do that yesterday. Failed miserably....hahahha...can't believe how childish i was. But at least i enjoyed yesterday. So much for acting cool..heh

So...my first cj medal. 4 by 100m relay in Yj invitational. So glad that we won it AND i am not in that school. Let's not be bad...but, their system was really lousy. Yesterday wazs the worst track and field meet i've been at!Even Outram Secondary scored better.

Anyway, we got off to a flying start of 45.3 secs! For first timers, that was brilliant. Aiming to reach below 44!Work hard dudes!

And hey!thank you for that birthday wish!U named yourself www, but seriously, TYPE YOUR NAME!!haha...i need to know who art thou.

Signing off.

So i'd decided that i will write a new entry.

Today's the 13th May, yea...sounds rather creepy. So much that i'm gonna fail my history AGAIN!sigh..Even so, this week seemed fulfilling. I had finally regained the feeling of 100m! That kind of feeling...even better...this time, i felt so much better. Perhaps it is because it was the first time i lead the race throughout. Or perhaps, I missed 100m so much. Nevertheless, i realised that i can run again. Rejuvenation. I feel fast. I feel that i can win.

Monday i clocked 11.38. It was kinda funny when i heard that i did so well. Honestly, i thought that i was doing 12 secs, especially since i expected the timing of 11.3 would thrash the rest of CJ. How arrogant (maybe that's why i'm a runner...each man for himself...but then again...i haven won any national medals?heh..). At least i'm enlightened: DON'T LOOK DOWN ON PPLE!!

The 4x400m was the best of all. My class broke the record!!haha...wow...and i felt that i could have done much better. Mr johnny lim said i did a timing of 54.7 secs, and wow...i broke my personal best. I did not feel tired after the race, unlike last year when i needed 2 days to recover from 400m. I feel really lucky to be fit! Alright..i must hit 52 by nationals!

haha...sounded so crappy today...oh man...i sounded like a girl..AAAAAAAA...no...!!!oh...i have a wallpaper of kristin kreuk...she's sooo beautiful!!!

Long day

HAH...it seems like i am so ready to fail history and gp...the two most important subjects in my combination. Scored 4/25 and 15/50 respectively...hahahaha...oh my gosh...what was i doing?!It seems quite strange when i put in most effort for the two subjects. LIFE RAWKS(yea right...)

Oh yea...and thnx for your comment, whoever it is, you're the first...YAY

A couple of weeks ago, my current track coach from cjc shot a lame joke at us. He said that when he was younger, he believed that 'hockey' is 'hot-key'. So he went around looking for hot keys to join his friends. Of course there went the same situation where his fellows enlighten him...bla bla...not funny. A handful of track mates laughed at his lameness, some kept quiet, while i laughed at his joke. Considering the fact that he did try to make us laugh, i realise that we should play along rather than criticise. oh...i love myself...heh..i'm good...But then came this speech. He said, "You're laughing. But always remember, you can laugh all you want at me, but i will never laugh at you." And he gave that smile. Woah...i thought. That perhaps have to be the most inspiring speech i've heard this year. Wow.

A short but meaningful story, hope you've learnt from it. Oh gosh, i really respect that guy. Shall not laugh at anyone else...hahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahaha...oopz...